I’m laying in bed a bit later than usual this morning… Yesterday I had this “fuzzy brain feeling” like I was tipsy… only problem was I wasn’t drinking. The feeling lasted through the afternoon. Then this morning I woke up with a headache. I haven’t done much research on Delestrogen so I couldn’t tell you if it’s the side effects, if I’ve caught a bug, or just plain old stress. Right now I just feel exhausted to the point where I have bags under my eyes and they look bloodshot. I’ve had plenty of sleep, way more than usual. I am just tired with a headache.
My coworker called me a few minutes ago. I confided in her a couple months ago that I would be going through IVF. So she asked if I was OK. I explained what I was feeling. Then she asked me, “are you starting to wonder if it’s all worth it?”
Without hesitation I told her it is totally worth it. Absolutely worth it.
Who else would I go through the pain, sickness, overcoming my fear of needles, betting my future nest egg… who else would I go through this for.. But my own child?
This – All of This – is worth the glimmer of hope that we might be able raise a child that might look like me and act like my husband… or look like him and act like me.. whatever qualities… I don’t mind laying here fuzzy-brained on this perfect cloudy morning.